Sometimes I wonder when it happens.

You know when you are going about your life and suddenly you realize that things have changed.

Not the things you really notice like your hairstyle, your job but the inside things that we sometimes don't pay enough attention to.

Maybe we need some event or situation to trigger a realization within ourselves that things are different, something has changed.

Last week I realized that something had changed inside of me.

Maybe it was the fund raising that I had done for Matt and Rebecca, maybe it was talking with Pastor Scott about what I wanted to be involved in at church.

Maybe it was an accumulation of a lot of things that finally made me realize that my focus had changed, well maybe not changed but the direction is more clear.

I am going to Sri Lanka. Pastor Scott asked me at our meeting what I felt God had called me to do and I said to be a missionary. He asked where I would go if I could go anywhere and I said Sri Lanka. At the time I said I picked Sri Lanka because it was within my frame of reference but since then I have had this deep, deep ache (for lack of a better word to describe it) in my heart whenever I think about it. There are still a lot of unknowns but I trust God and have a new excitement for what lies ahead.